typhoons and earthquakes

they all happened right here. the typhoon swept through and an earthquake happened over 500 hundred miles away. i felt not a tingle from the earthquake. i saw the typhoon hammering everything outside. i drew the curtains and watched tv.


dreams

i had a dream the other night. someone kept talking in it. i remember some of the things they were saying:


genes

they are the limitation of your ability. you may want to be a violinist or a tennis player but your goddam genes limit everything you want to do. you can't polish a turd. even if you're really goddam clever you still can't sing for shit. even if you practice kicking a ball every goddam day of your goddam stupid life you may never make it because your goddam genes stop you. they destroy and suffocate your dreams; plunder ambition and choke hope and desire.


motivation

it drives your despair and makes you follow empty hollow visions. it creates illusions that few realise. it pushes you higher so you can fall further. it shoves you and yanks you up so everyone can see you fall, when you eventually fall, because everyone eventually falls. motivation has set up a stage so the whole rabble can point and scoff as you run out of steam; you legs start to wobble as you lose you grip; you slip and slide away.


fear

the ultimate weapon of kings and tyrants. before the celestial grunge and before the crazy world of entertainment exploded in our faces, way before the black and white photos of sailors and ticker tape parades. the world was a metal mean drinks bar. the wireless and the people talking. teachers repeat quotations, students wash the inkpots. the coins were bigger then. it's a song only the lonely sing and the rich hear.


god

he is the way. he is the word. forget the dead. leave the infirm, the plagued and the cursed. follow the light for the light is the only way. he will come and we will want no more. we are all his people, the shepherds the soldiers and the lords will all pray. the reckoning is upon you. peace shall be preserved. the damned will suffer. the spears in the desert; the doves in the cages: all shall rise to the heavens when he calls us.



i don't really remember anymore.


high fidelity

i just saw the interview with stephen frears on the dvd bonus part. what an intellegent man he is. he's like that teacher everyone claims they had in school.